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I claim to be a positive person, but that is not entirely true.  I want to be a positive person, because there truly always is a positive side.  But my reflex reaction is always negative, and it drives me NUTS.  I had a beautifully positive review today and all I could think of was what wasn't said, and it took two pep talks from two people to get me out of the negative. That shouldn't be how my brain works!  I should be happy I have a job.  I should be happy my employers are thrilled with my work, but well, I'm not.   I want my dedication to be rewarded and i want my ideas to be celebrated, cause, well, i'm smart and shit.