Media Junky

For years I was a celebrity gossip junky.  I woke up in the morning and went through the routine of, Facebook, Perez Hilton, coffee, cigarette, shower........  If there was something going on with anyone famous at any one time, I knew about it.  I had to know about it.... I read Perez's blog like it was a newspaper with the most important information that could possibly exist.  After a while I started to notice how Perez liked to play favorites, and was especially mean and nasty to the folks he didn't like.  Miley held her head the wrong way and inspired a 100 word blog on how slutty this 16 year old is.  Or Lindsey was holding a glass of clear liquid with ice in it, it HAD to be vodka! O! M! G!  No way! Everyone stop and get your rotten veggies and throw them at these girls who have been whored out by their parents.....  I kept on reading his dribble for a whole year after discovering how awful of a person he was.... because I still wanted to know what Britney Spears was doing, who was dying, who was checking into rehab, who was checking out, blah blah blah...  I was hooked and Perez was my dealer.  Slowly I started envisioning myself starting a blog of my own that was all about gossip bloggers and columnists and the effed up shit they got themselves into.  I decided that I wanted to dig up their pasts and sit in their driveways for hours on end with a camera and 50 of my colleagues.  I wanted to stand in front of Perez's car and flash lights at him when he was trying to get his morning coffee.  I wanted to pick apart every outfit he ever wore and make him feel like he made all of those other celebrities feel.  But I had to change my mind when I realized just how much I wanted to be NOTHING like him.  I want to be a decent human being who didn't get off by getting paid to talk trash about people.
Please do not get me wrong here, because I do not "feel sorry" for celebrities.  I feel sorry for our current situation.  I went to acting school.  I wanted to be a "star".  That was my dream from when I was a little girl until I got to Hollywood.  The kind of "star" I wanted to be, no longer exists.  Celebrities are not supposed to be role models.  Whoever came up with that idea is soft in the head.  Actors are people who make a living on pretending to be other people.  One HAS to be emotionally unstable to be able to do something like that.  They are people who have to access emotions they have never had before.  Up until the late 90's only the biggest scandals in Hollywood were plastered all over the news, today its about the fact that Jessica Simpson found a wrinkle LITERALLY.   What I am trying to say is that maybe if we stop caring about Mel's latest rant and start caring about our own lives, or real issues that actually effect us, maybe, just maybe, the world can start to become a better place........

When Filterless is bad

 
I know I gave the blog a break for a while.  Shit was getting deep over here in my world and I really did not want to have an outlet to bitch or air my issues with people who are close to me in such an open environment.  I write to make myself feel better.  I write to help me work through  my issues.  But the last few months have been a little too much for me to share with the inter web society.  All that craziness I kind of came out flipped.  a few months ago my career was on its way up and I loved my job.  My social/love life was, however, massively suffering.  I had "dates", I had guys I was "talking too", but either I liked them more then they liked me, vice verse, or we liked each other just fine but couldn't seem to make it off the runway.  I guess now that I am more at peace with what is happening in my life I can get back to ranting and raving about things that piss off about the world, and share my opinion about the things that are worth having an opinion about.  Doing all of this without making people feel uncomfortable about knowing just a little too much about my personal relationships. ;-)

Mr Hopper

I know there are many many epic roles that Dennis Hopper has embraced, but this scene is definitely my favorite. True Romance is one of my favorite movies and this scene is abso-fucking-lutely BRILLIANT. Thank you Mr. Hopper for all of the talent you shared with us. RIP.

Why people are dumb and ruin Facebook for smart people.

I know I have ranted about Facebook etiquette before, but get used to it... Its gonna happen a lot.  I would win the who's on Facebook the most contest, if there was one, and it seems like Facebook is an amplifier for assholes...

Yesterday two things happened on Facebook, that pissed me off SO much that I seriously considered letting go of FB all together.... Lets start with Douche bag scenario #1, shall we?

Last night was the Series Finale of Lost.  Not every one watches it. But just because YOU don't watch it, does not mean the show as bad.  Nor does it mean that the people who actually do enjoy it are losers.  Get the fuck over yourself. 

Yesterday, around 3 pm  a certain "LA" guy (and he's so fucking "LA") Posted a status that was essentially giving away the ending of Lost.  Now in the end it was a hoax and NOT the ending of Lost, which I was pretty sure of, because his version of the ending of Lost was pretty much lame and lacking any creative thought, but still...his hoax was frustrating and annoying.  I just don't see what is funny about publicizing a fake ending to a TV show, movie, or book.  I just see it as you blowing yourself up as a complete Douche bag.  and while this guy is actually (no joke) a professional "Hoaxster"  I still thought this one was a pretty rude and obnoxious joke.

Now, the next Facebook miss-hap is much worse.  It was a personal attack by someone I was actually once FRIENDS with. Here is what this asshole posted on my wall: "Dear people who still watch lost...GET A LIFE! How many freaking seasons can people spend getting off, then back on, then back off, then back on, then back off, then back on and island! I figured out 9/10's of the ENTIRE show's plot (I'm talking ALL the seasons) in about 5 minutes of watching 2 episodes. Move on!"

Great.  That's his opinion.  Fine. I really don't give a fuck. If it was his status I wouldn't give 2 shits about his opinion. but he posted it ON MY FUCKING WALL.  I have a life.  I have a very fucking good life.  I have a great career.  I have amazing friends and family.  I am not fat or ugly.  I own my own car, and my cat thinks I am just about the coolest thing ever... oh and I watch fucking TV.  Not all the time. but I watch TV. That, in NO way means I need to get a life, and I do NOT appreciate being told that on my fucking Facebook wall you piece of shit  So if you think My Lost status updates are annoying, or you really feel that I need to get a life, then fucking delete me from your friends list.  Do not publicly insult me and then claim it was a "joke" cause its not funny.  Its just rude.  RUDE.  I do not like people like that and really don't need them in my life.

Your Single Friend

So this is going to be a touchy subject But I have been battling with it for about 16 hours now and I have come to the conclusion that I have to write it.  I ask that no one take offense to this and read it with an open mind instead of getting defensive, I will be presenting both sides, because I have been on both sides.  I am not attacking anyone, I am merely pointing out behaviors that I have recently become acutely aware of.
Last night, on one of my new favorite sitcoms, Cougar Town, a new couple and their group of friends struggled to inform their last standing single friend of their relationship.  It was extremely interesting to watch this play out, as I happen to be the last standing single one in my group of friends and have really had my back up about it lately.  The show helped me see both sides.
While out to dinner with my friends, I attacked a friend who pretty obviously needed reassurance and an ear.  I did it because in that moment I thought her freaking out about an obviously good thing in her new relationship was extremely insensitive to me, the lonely single one.  And while yes it could be viewed as insensitive, but I would be freaking out over the exact same thing if I were in her shoes, and I would also be turning to my friends for advice and reassurance.  It is a hard situation to work through as a single person.  You want your friends to be happy, yet you have no ally, or support system remaining.  As the nonsingle person you become hurt by your single friends constant jabs and inability to just listen and be supportive.  I think it is pretty important for people to understand that when you are involved with some one and you are happy, your single friends are going to be jealous of you, and they have every right to be.  And single people need to understand that when your friends are happy in their relationship they are going to want to share that with you, and sometimes you have to let them see the "I'm happy for you side", instead of the bitter lonely side all the time.  Your single friends ARE happy for you, nobody wants to see their friends unhappy.  And even though it may seem insignificant to you, our small talk about the one off conversations we have with people of the opposite sex is all we have right now.  I think the single friend needs to work on being less sarcastic and mean and show more support of the happiness.  I think the nonsingle people need to work on not rolling their eyes at the single one and maybe try to understand why they are saying the things they are saying.... and maybe also tone done all the happy happy just a little bit. 
On a side equally important note.  Let your significant others hangout with their single friends! Don't get mad or worried every time they get together with them.. Single people are not an evil tempter just waiting for the perfect opportunity to suck your significant other back into singledom... calm down.

Is there an under ground network or something??

Now this is not something that I am currently dealing with, but if you are a female, this HAS happened to you in your life time.  There you are going through life, you have a boyfriend, and either you break up with him or he breaks up with you, whichever, and BANG! It's like the breakup heard 'round the network of all of your ex-boyfriends, ex-booty calls, guys who have had an unrequited thing for you for 25 years... ALL of them hear it and start blowing up your phone, your Facebook page, any way they can these guys are contacting you.  What is that?  How does that happen?  And it does, every time.  This is not an "I'm so cool, so many guys want me" thing.  It is a FACT.  This happens to EVERY ONE of my girlfriends, break up, and all the past guys crawl out of the woodwork. I have a theory.  Its a bad theory, and probably completely false, but it is the only conclusion I can come up with;  There is a guy code that states that if you are dating a girl, you HAVE to get the names and numbers of all the guys from her past, and you are mandated, punishable by death or castration, to inform all of these guys effective IMMEDIATELY once breakup has commenced.  Is that it?  There has to be some sort of reason for this!

Alejandro Ale-ale-janderooooo

I have had that damn song stuck in my head ALL morning and it is driving me INSANE! Lady Gaga, you've got talent, I can't deny it.  I liked Poker Face, a lot.  However I cannot say that I still enjoy your music, and you know why?  Because every time I turn on the radio, there you are! and its not just one station, its 2 or 3 at a time.  So in my 7 minute commute too and from work, chances are I am going to hear The Gaga wailing through my speakers.  You know what, when I have to choose between the Gaga and commercials, I choose freaking commercials, because I just can't stomach any more gaga!  Take a vacation woman.  Give us some time to digest your tunes.  You are the stage 5 clinger of pop music.  We all love musicians who space out their releases.  The bands and performers who make us wait until we HAVE to have more.  I feel over stuffed by Gaga, and I can no longer enjoy her.  Thanks ClearChannel, and all the powers that have caused this Lady Gaga Overdose.